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Hey (please insert name)! I am browngirlthoughts. NYC 17 years old and like every teenager I'm trying to figure out who I am. Being an American Muslim Guyanese teenager is kind of hard to balance out. So instead of trying to be everything at once, I do what I know and feel is right. #tryingtobeagoodmuslim
It may seem random. It may seem wise, funny, quirky, conventional, or liberal but these are my thoughts.

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I would be “the best friend”.
     You know who I am talking about. The girl who is the female main character’s bestie. She usually does not want the main characters to get together, doesn’t think that they are right for each other, vexed whenever main character talks about him. She often comes across as annoying and jealous. Overall you just wish she wasn’t in the movie.

Well I’m here to tell her side.


     Maybe she is annoyed and jealous. Okay cross out the word maybe. And it’s hard to be truly happy for someone else all the time especially when 1)you remember all the hurt and pain he caused her in the past 2) not in a relationship yourself 3) not in the same place as her.

      As a best friend you want to do your best to protect your friends no matter what. If someone causes them hurt you shun them, talk bad about them and comfort your bestie. So when the same male main character goes back after her you try to remind her of the hurt he caused so she would not have to experience it again.

      As you can see now your best friend ignored your opposition and prudence to follow her heart. Now all she does is talk about him. As happy as you are that she is happy. You feel lonesome because you are not having similar experiences that relates to her. Also you feel a yearning to be intimate with someone partially because of your loneliness and partially because of your want to conversate with and relate to your friend.


     The best friend is usually trying to find out who she is and what is her purpose. She wants the support of her best friend but she is unable to receive it due to her friend not having the same goals as her.
So yes all the rumors and nasty comments are true, the “best friend” is annoyed and jealous but can you really blame her?

So I was just watching this vid and a youngish Muslim brother was talking about over confidence. He said “It’s good to be a strong man or a strong woman. Wait… guys don’t like strong women… well at least I don’t.”

I was like, “hold up, watchu say??”

iA it I misinterpreted it or he just did not word that correctly….idk guys..

The solution to your problems is to run away from them :D

I think tomorrow my guy friend is gonna tell me tht he has a crush on me.
Last week he was telling me tht he had on nd off crushes on me nd I was w.e about it cuz tht is in the past. Today he was all like don’t blanket urself in makeup tomorrow(senior pic day which I’m also freaking out about) u look really pretty without it. It just felt weird. He told me tht he is dating this girl but he doesn’t like her bc he likes this other girl in our school nd in our grade but she doesnt want to date. He texted me just now all like ill tell u who the girl is tomorrow in person. It is important tht I tell u who she is in person.
Now I’m like ughhhhhhhhhh. DON’T LIKE ME!! DON’T TELL ME U LIKE ME!!! GET OVER IT!! MAKE UR FEELINGS GO AWAY!!!
if he does tell me tht he likes me I’m gonna have to explain my priorities nd religion nd it’s just gonna be one big mess.

Praying really does make everything better.

Me:*sees 2 year old leaping into parents arms hugging and kissing them*
Me:*internally and externally crying*

I do know that:

- I want to make a lot of money

- I want to travel

- I want to be a better Muslim

- I want to read

- I want “The Package”: Married, big fancy wedding, honeymoon, 2.5 kids, be an awesome mom and wife whiles balancing career and bringing home dough.

- Whenever a natural disaster occurs or any type of disaster be a first responder. (Going to the area and giving food, clothes, consoling people, etc.)

- Use my knowledge and expertise to help people.

I do not know:

- How am I going to make money

- What career should I go into

- What career would provide me with money and flexibility while making me happy

It has nothing to do with my intended career field and will not really abet me in future endeavors(maybe in making the perfect cup of coffee). just the idea of working in a coffee shop with the warm smell of coffee and freshly baked goods in the morning and welcoming each customer with a good morning/ afternoon/night and making small talk with everyone, forming bonds with the regulars is just something I want to do at some point in my life during college.

i just want to go away… I want to not be here.. not deal with these problems…. I want to go but I don’t know where and I don’t know how… I just want to leave and be somewhere where I am happy…

You know I pray for you a lot..
I pray that you will be safe
I pray that you will achieve ur dreams of either working for the NCIS or becoming a SEAL
I pray that you will get guidance
I know that you are lost looking for somewhere to fulfill your yearning heart
You think it will be filled by the navy
You think it will be filled by me
I will tell u from now that it wouldn’t
I’m not sure if you believe in God or not but I pray that you will develop a strong relationship with Him through Islam
Maybe that’s why u keep coming to me
Maybe I’m the one who is supposed to guide you there, to the right path
But the only way I can do that is by pushing you away from me as far as possible
Bc then you will understand what Islam is about:
Knowing that the least you can give Him in return for all that He blessed u with is to push away what you desire for His sake. You get rewarded for it in this life as well as in the end when you will return to Him. Bc of ur journey of struggling to please Him you will meet Him and He will be pleased.

You are not there yet
I get that
I pray that you will get there someday
Maybe when u are there you will be lead to me
But whether you are lead to me or not
I still pray for you

I mean I’ve studied and tried so hard for so long (since july) and I know I’m probably still not going to make it. And that freakin sucks to think that you’ve put all your effort into something and you are still not good enough.  I know I could take the SAT again but I really don’t want to; I’m tired; I want to move onto other things. I’ve already wasted 8 months of my life I will never get back studying for one stupid test. I could have enjoyed being 16 instead of stressing over schoolwork and the SATs. I’m trying to calm myself down and remind myself that whatever happens is because of my Creator’s will. If He wanted me to nail this test on my first try, I did. If He didn’t want that for me, I didn’t and it is because He has a different plan for me. 

At Mandees, thinkin I’m cute… Lol
In Spanish class on Thursday. Lighting was kinda weird but then again what isn’t weird in Spanish :P

Because they would never learn every circumstance another person has been put in or every situation he had to go through. Even in trials no one knows the complete picture and lawyers use lies and bribes.
Our human nature is to categorize even though the human race is incredibly dynamic. Categorizing the human race is a big puzzle that we have been trying to fix since we(people)were placed here(earth). we find miniscule similarities between people and group them together.
This is why judging should only be left to Allah(SWT). He knows and sees everything about everyone. He knows every detail, every circumstance, every situation we have been put in and had to endure. Only He knows the full picture.
I’m concluding that is why Islam has taught us not to judge one another but it is also the biggest flaw of our ummah.

When An Anti-Feminist Remark Goes Wrong
Me:*makes quick sarcastic remark offending guy*
Guy:what you forgot your menopause pills this morning?
Me:Menopause? Do I look like I'm sixty? Go back to ninth grade biology and then think of a better comeback to say to me.